yeah…that never worked for me.
I don’t know why I get stage fright now – I don’t recall having it particularily bad when I was younger. When I was younger, though, I was playing the piano with my back to the audience or acting in little school productions as someone other than myself. With piano, there’s a ‘zone’, a kind of tuning out of the environment, or a tuning into the music. It’s great, and was much easier to perform when it happened.
In a week and a half, there’s a year-end gala performance at the local arts centre in which I’m both singing and reading. I don’t know how to ‘zone’ for either of these activities. It’s rather nerve-racking.
I tend to speak rather quickly and quietly when speaking “normally”, and in front of others, my speech gets even faster and softer. When singing, I have very little concept of how loud I need to be – if I can hear me, I figure I must be too loud. Apparently, that’s not the case, but my brain doesn’t really buy into that yet.
I’m a big ol’ work in progress and I have to try and make some further headway between now and the second week in June. Hey – I’ve gotten better over the last year. Seriously. I no longer shake and turn six shades of red, for example. But there’s always better…. and there’s always the elusive zone.